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word of the day: 'kind of' (yes, I cheated, so what?)
A lot of noteworthy things have happened as of late, plus I have two assignments in the next two week (see: procrastination), so just a head's up that I'll actually be updating more (see: that's the plan).
Best start with today though. In list form? Okay.
Things Accomplished Today:
- discovered where Hornsby is
- caught up with family friend
- was advised/decided to take a chance on a career in radiology
- submitted late application to transfer to a radiology degree
- forked out $160 something in late application fees
- completed week 5 day 1 of the c25k
Okay, so that doesn't really seem like a lot. I purposely left out what I did at work, which I'm sure no one wants to hear about, even though I made people happy enough to leave me a $10 tip (yay!). I've also had the hiccups on six seperate occasions today, but I don't think that's really an accomplishment. More like a hinderance.
But yes, hello. Just kind of made a life decision kind of thing, which was kind of spur of the moment, so that's got to count as something, right? It's still sinking in at the moment. Not that, you know, I've been accepted or anything. I have to wait until late January... (9pm 19th of January 2011 to be precise), but I guess if I don't get in, I finish my current Communications degree and apply again.
I feel kind of sorry for my parents and the bf since I seem to be stalling hard in this aspect of my life. It frustrates me too as I'm the type of person who likes to have a steady path, make progress and continue to compulsively plan (see: research the shit out of my options, the steps needed to reach my goals, prioritise/evaluate), yet I'm floundering around like a fish out of water, forced to flail around in pools that turn out to be shallow, shallow puddles of water. Not to mention the ginormous student debt I'm accumulating...
My rationalisation for this transfer is that:
1) It's practical - there's actually a job at the end of thegreyscale rainbow
2) Most of my family is in the medical field (see: not immediate family + this reason sucks & I'm not really counting it)
3) The hours are apparently good with opportunities for casual/part time hours, which make it family friendly (does it make me sad that my ultimate goal in life is to have a happy family?)
4) It actually helps people and contributes to society
There's also a downside comprised of my lack of relevant knowledge in that field - but hey, this could be a challenge. A personal challenge, as I'm the type of person who feels extremely uncomfortable when I'm not 100% in the know about something. I haaate being out of my comfort zone and it can impact my confidence big time. This could be a huge growth experience for me especially since I've never really dealt with it. I actually don't know much about radiologists and what they do either, but a family friend was a radiologist and I'm planning to hit him up soon. Then we just have to throw the fact that I'm jumping around yet again and feel like I'm not getting anywhere/can't trust myself anymore issues, the fact I'm getting older/wasted a lot of time faffing about already, and the increasing debt monster and you have a bleak masterpiece.
I also feel you should know that Communications is no longer my passion and kind of sucks. I dislike learning about/being constrained to things that I am unable to tie my own subject of interest in to, which is pretty much everything right now. I also dislike (with a seething passion) this new degree with its waffley structure. Why do you suck?! This made me realise that I'm sick of communications at university and no longer desire to remain at such an institution for the rest of my life, surrounded by, and having to teach, things that I am (vehemently) not interested in. So goodbye viable career option in comms.
Hello scary possible plunge into the future which also could be soul sucking, but at least my babies will have a roof over their heads and food in their bellies and brownie points from whoever is up there/society will roll in with everything x-ray/joint fluid sample I take.
Best start with today though. In list form? Okay.
Things Accomplished Today:
- discovered where Hornsby is
- caught up with family friend
- was advised/decided to take a chance on a career in radiology
- submitted late application to transfer to a radiology degree
- forked out $160 something in late application fees
- completed week 5 day 1 of the c25k
Okay, so that doesn't really seem like a lot. I purposely left out what I did at work, which I'm sure no one wants to hear about, even though I made people happy enough to leave me a $10 tip (yay!). I've also had the hiccups on six seperate occasions today, but I don't think that's really an accomplishment. More like a hinderance.
But yes, hello. Just kind of made a life decision kind of thing, which was kind of spur of the moment, so that's got to count as something, right? It's still sinking in at the moment. Not that, you know, I've been accepted or anything. I have to wait until late January... (9pm 19th of January 2011 to be precise), but I guess if I don't get in, I finish my current Communications degree and apply again.
I feel kind of sorry for my parents and the bf since I seem to be stalling hard in this aspect of my life. It frustrates me too as I'm the type of person who likes to have a steady path, make progress and continue to compulsively plan (see: research the shit out of my options, the steps needed to reach my goals, prioritise/evaluate), yet I'm floundering around like a fish out of water, forced to flail around in pools that turn out to be shallow, shallow puddles of water. Not to mention the ginormous student debt I'm accumulating...
My rationalisation for this transfer is that:
1) It's practical - there's actually a job at the end of the
2) Most of my family is in the medical field (see: not immediate family + this reason sucks & I'm not really counting it)
3) The hours are apparently good with opportunities for casual/part time hours, which make it family friendly (does it make me sad that my ultimate goal in life is to have a happy family?)
4) It actually helps people and contributes to society
There's also a downside comprised of my lack of relevant knowledge in that field - but hey, this could be a challenge. A personal challenge, as I'm the type of person who feels extremely uncomfortable when I'm not 100% in the know about something. I haaate being out of my comfort zone and it can impact my confidence big time. This could be a huge growth experience for me especially since I've never really dealt with it. I actually don't know much about radiologists and what they do either, but a family friend was a radiologist and I'm planning to hit him up soon. Then we just have to throw the fact that I'm jumping around yet again and feel like I'm not getting anywhere/can't trust myself anymore issues, the fact I'm getting older/wasted a lot of time faffing about already, and the increasing debt monster and you have a bleak masterpiece.
I also feel you should know that Communications is no longer my passion and kind of sucks. I dislike learning about/being constrained to things that I am unable to tie my own subject of interest in to, which is pretty much everything right now. I also dislike (with a seething passion) this new degree with its waffley structure. Why do you suck?! This made me realise that I'm sick of communications at university and no longer desire to remain at such an institution for the rest of my life, surrounded by, and having to teach, things that I am (vehemently) not interested in. So goodbye viable career option in comms.
Hello scary possible plunge into the future which also could be soul sucking, but at least my babies will have a roof over their heads and food in their bellies and brownie points from whoever is up there/society will roll in with everything x-ray/joint fluid sample I take.